ugh!

[soncnica]

I'm frustrated. I'm writing a story, a one shot, short (well at least I hope it will be, lol), and the story only has two scenes, one happening at one place, the other someplace else, and I can see it all happen in my head, I can freaking smell it, but ... I just can't seem to put what I see into words. It's so frustrating! And annoying! I mean its just two scenes, damnit! Two scenes to put into words, scenes I see soooooo clearly in my head when I close my eyes, but when I wanna write it all down ... no words come to me. *shakes head* But I have to write it, otherwise my head will explode. *sigh*
And then I'm all like, but who will read this? And then I'm like, write for your own peace of mind! But... but... uhhh... idk... and then I'm like, is this steampunk? Or is this just another made up world? And then I'm like, ugh just write, you moron!
Yeah...
Rant over.

Comments

[somer.livejournal.com]

...but who will read this? YOU'RE KIDDING RIGHT? I'll definitely read it!!!! :D

I'm not a writer, so I don't know how it feels to want to write something down you see so vividly in your head and then it just won't come out. But it sounds pretty bad and like you said frustrating. I hope your muse comes out of hiding and lets you describe and tell the story you see so clearly. :)

[soncnica.livejournal.com]

:-):-) thank you, sweetie! :-) means a lot to me! :-)

It is very frustrating, I never really get frustrated over writing stories, its a pleasure for me, I just write, edit, post. But this one... man oh man... just two scenes, two scenes happening at two different places, I mean I could write either of them at any time, and divide them with a -:-, and it would be over, but ... but the words just don't wanna come, but I can see everything so clearly, so so clearly I can smell it, taste it on my tongue... but noup... no words! *sigh* now I'm not even frustrated anymore, lol, I'm angry! :-):-) maybe when angry, the words will come! :-) anger helps sometimes, right? :-):-)

Uhhhhh, stupid brain! :-)

Thank you so much for your support! It truly means a lot to me! *hugs*

S.

[septembers-coda.livejournal.com]

Hi! Sorry you're having a hard time! It definitely happens to every writer. But having the idea is the hardest part. The story is done; it just hasn't come out of hiding yet! I have a couple ideas of things that have helped me lately:

1) Maybe you're fighting yourself/your story. You want it to be the way it is in your head, but maybe it wants to be something else, and you can feel that it will morph if you start typing. No way to solve that except to let it be what it wants! You'll get a different story than you planned, but it might be even better.
2) Write an outline. Even if you have all the details in your head, sometimes just forming simple sentences or fragments, “this happens in this place, then this happens,” will help you find the language of your story. You’ll want to start elaborating, and when you do, well then, here comes your story! I wrote my last two fics in both the above ways, and it helped me a lot when I was struggling.
3) Speed write. Just write. Don’t worry about structure, accuracy, whether it’s good, or anything else. In the beginning, it might not be good, (or it might!) but it will get better the longer you write. Then you edit it into what you want.

Sorry if I’m sticking my nose in, but I hope this helps! :-)

[soncnica.livejournal.com]

Hey! Omg sticking your nose in? You silly creature, you! Ahaha, no way, never! Every word of advice and support is very welcome and everyone is always super welcome to comment! Thank you so much!
I am doing a combination of 2) and 3) right now... seems to be working, have a few things done for scene A and B ('s what I call them, lol) and I feel better already. This has never happened to me before, to struggle sooooooo much for 2 freaking scenes... especially when I know exactly what I want and where I want it and how I want it. :-):-)

Thank you soooo very much for your words of advice, thank you! :-):-)

*hugs*
S.

[septembers-coda.livejournal.com]

<3 <3 Always glad if I can help! *hugs* back, and good luck! :-)

[soncnica.livejournal.com]

Thank you for everything! Have an awesome, awesome day! :-):-) *smish*

S.

[serendip50.livejournal.com]

Sorry can't offer any really constructive words of wisdom as I am not a writer and have no idea of the trials and tribulations a writer like yourself goes through to channel and put down thoughts and ideas. I can only imagine how frustrating it must certainly be:(.

BUT...take heart, you have sound advice above and I know that you will get there in the end because there is nowhere else for your imagination to manifest but on paper and in your own spelendid way. I have faith you will find your muse...it just takes a sentence to latch onto the spark!
Write and scribble, is what I would do....whatever comes out can be fixed later.

and most important of all.....
BLOODY HELL...OF COURSE I AND I'M SURE MANY MORE WILL BE WAITING WITH BATED BREATH TO READ THE RESULT!

Good luck. Hugs x

[soncnica.livejournal.com]

Hey! :-)
Thank you so much, and sometimes one doesn't need a lot of advice, just some words of support and confidence! :-) thank you *hugs you* and it is frustrating, especially when allis areally in my mind but there are just noooo words to accompany the images. Ugh... !!

But I am very happy to announce that scene A is done and done! Now I just have to write scene B and edit and post. Probably some time next week :-):-) The season finale of SPN left me completely in shock and unable to really concentrate on writing, but I hope I will manage to do some today :-)

Thank you again so very much for... just for everything! :-):-):-) I can not even begin to describe how much every word of advice or faith in me means to me!! Thank you! :-):-)

The story even has a name, yay :-):-) its called All The Nobody People... and once I have a title, then I know all will be well :-):-)

*hugs*
S.

[serendip50.livejournal.com]

You know what!....that title sounds particularly meaningful. I don't know what you are thinking but it somehow focuses Dean to the front of my mind. I kinda have a clue why but don't want to dwell on it...*sighs*.

[soncnica.livejournal.com]

Hahahahaha, Dean, huh? I am sorry to say, but the story is J2 :-):-) oops, although Dean, yeah .... totally could work with the title too.... but yeah, the story is J2 :-):-)

And damn you, now I keep on connecting Dean with the title.... ahaahhha, oh gosh! :-):-):-) Dean, Dean, Dean ... he does think he is a nobody, huh? *sniffles*

S.

[serendip50.livejournal.com]

Hahaha....well, lets just say his character is a little side-lined, maybe, or not used challengingly enough seeing as Jensen has made the character so individual, complex and definitely vulnerable even sad... not to mention awesome. Dean is definitely NOT a nobody he is infact very crutial to the whole story. However, his potential is overlooked. His role is not or let me re-phrase Should not be to take care of Sam any longer...he is not his parent and Sam if fully grown! And how...lol. Dean (the writers) need to realise this. At this point I think I prefer Sam and the soulless figher Sara gave us...(so many great stories out there)....and I never thought I'd say that!

I still maintain Spn should have ended with Season 5.

Anyway....hehe....I don't normally read Spn stories or Wincest unless it is Dean focused (and only bottom!Dean) and Sam is strong and forceful. Or evil!Sam even better!...lol.

I'm so happy your story is J2! An anxious to read. x

[soncnica.livejournal.com]

Hmmm, :-) to be honest, I don't really watch the show as Sam show or Dean show, I, uh, watch it as brothers!show. It started, weirdly enough, at the end of S5 (before that I was totally a Sam!girl), when I kinda stopped being in the fandom, because of all the negativity and all... and so now I watch the show, love it to pieces, and see Sam and Dean as these two people joined at the hip, lol, totally codependent, totally human, ya know? I don't discuss the eps, don't read any articles, don't read comments, I just watch the show with my eyes, my thoughts, ya know? So idk if the show really is lacking in the Dean dept. :-) I just see Dean and Sam as brothers, both so so very important to the other. :-)
*hugs you*

Ohhh soulless Sam? Hot as hell, and there was so much potential there guh!
And lol, me too.... if I write wincest I only write bottom!Dean, because Sam topping is like burning! Hot, forcefull, intense, sometimes a bit too much to handle, and I love Dean surrendering! :-)

:-):-) yes, its J2... it fits better, you will see what I mean. I hope you will like it and that the warnings won't scare you away, but :-) by now I know you know my writing and know that things aren't always what they seem :-):-):-):-)

*hugs*
S.

[serendip50.livejournal.com]

I totally know what you mean about the fan negativity. I don't get involved in forums about the show or comment comms which tend to slate one boy or the other. I hate the flaming, it makes me depressed, so I keep away.
I do however, have reservations about how Sam is portrayed...it's just inevitable because I love Dean so much eventhough I started out as a Sam lover....:). But I do love both boys and their relationship...I just get frustrated over Dean's role...*shrugs*.

To be honest I also much prefer to make up my own mind about the stories and their development when I finally decide to watch the remainder of S7 and S8:). Basically I read and mind my own business...lol. It was your title that actually prompted my little rant....haha....and I haven't even watched to know the contrary....gzzz.

Yes...I know your style and I love it. I know you won't disappoint I'm that confident.
No pressure....lol. x

[soncnica.livejournal.com]

Yessss, yes, yes, and yes! Somewhere in S4 I was like, maybe I should just stop being in the fandom, but then I still was, and it was crappy, and then in S5, I was like, enough, I am leaving the fandom, it is too negative and depressing, yes! I never read articles, I don't read comments and I just don't do anything fandom(ish), but write and read stories and well watch the show! I am under no influence of other's opinion, or under their negativity or whatever... and to be honest, the show is soooooo spectacular when you watch it like that, just you and the boys! Spectacular!

Its okay, I know, I mean maybe Dean has a smaller role than Sam, but I still see them as one... :-) its really hard for me to just concentrate on one of them, because they are a whole... weird brain! Lol :-)

Omg you haven't seen S7, S8 yet? You should as soon as you can, babe! :-)

Lol, you ranting is perfectly awesome, I feel kinda cool, that a title made you reply like this, :-):-):-) I respect any opinion anyone gives, so... you can always come rant here, and babble, and speak your mind! :-) *hugs*

Hahahah :-):-):-) awesome, thank you! :-):-):-) *hugs*

S.

[serendip50.livejournal.com]

I'm just happy there are fantastic writers out there who write my kind of story the way I prefer. And long may it continue! no matter what the show professes.

Have a great weekend. Hugs x

[soncnica.livejournal.com]

Me too, me too! (+the show) lol :-)

You have a great weekend too! :-):-):-) *smish*