Okay so ....

[soncnica]

... I very rarely post things that AREN'T stories, but I need to ... have a bit of a 'I need a break' here. I was on vacation for the last 3 days with a friend of mine and we went around my country and we (totally unplanned and totally on a weird accident) visited 2 monastaries. With monks still living there. And we saw the monks, they were very polite, very quiet-spoke, very nice, kind.
And ....I wanted to write J2 where one of them is a monk.

So ... I started the story about idk half an hour or so ago and I'm two pages in ... and I'm crying like freaking rain. This wasn't supposed to be a sad story and it's not a sad story, it isn't, but I can't ... ugh, I've written a lot of stories, and some are emotional (or so the ones who left a comment say), but this one .... I just ... I was writing it and all of a sudden I just started crying. WTF!? Just seriously, WTF!? It hit me out of the blue, just ... one minute I was writing and the next tears, a lot of them! I ... I don't think I'll ever be able to finish this story and if I will, it will probably be after I'll cry a lot of tears.
I already used two tissues and I can't even see the keyboard really well, but ... I just needed to leave the story and take a break.
Oh man .... oh man ... sometimes ... sometimes writing a story isn't easy, it hurts, it hurts when you want to write something and you feel like you need to write it but your heart is figting it, but your brain is pushing you on. When you're writing it's just you and your characters and you feel/see/want what they want and ... ugh, it's just .... a bit too much to take in.
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Maybe I'll finish the story and use up a year's worth supply of tears. :)
yeah ... I'll go to sleep now ... I need to wash my face and go to sleep. I can't deal with this atm.

Comments

[somer.livejournal.com]

*huuuuuuuugs you*

You, my friend, are one exceptional writer, you know that? Just wow! And I'm dreading the moment you're actually going to post that story (no pressure, if and when or whatever), because I just know it will leave me a mess too.

But yes, maybe you should take a break now :)

[herminekurotowa.livejournal.com]

What somer said.

Poor honey, hope you feel better now. ♥

[amberdreams.livejournal.com]

I can't help thinking you getting so emotionally involved is probably a good thing for the story (if not for you!). Though it does slow things down rather...

J2 monks sounds like an interesting concept - tryfanstone wrote one were Jared was a young monk and got kidnapped by Vikings, that was fun. Well fun for the reader, not for Jared (until things got steamy, then he enjoyed it a lot!).

[madebyme-x.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry to hear the story's giving you a hard time, but I'm sure it'll be worth your energy and emotion. Just take your time with it *hugs*