Hmmm, should I or should I not?!

[soncnica]

I'm thinking of signing up for the ummm supernatural hardcore big bang ... I do have a story, well half done, but apparently mini bang only requires 5k of words or more (with me and my inability to shut up, I don't think word count would be a problem, LOL) and I could finish the story by the time drafts are supposed to be turned in ... and the story is kinda hardcor-ish and 'm kinda too shy/scared/embarrassed to post it just like that out of the blue, LOL, but if it would be a part of a challenge, then maybe .... pffff, God, idk ... AND then who would make art for that story!? I mean ''kink'' wise, because the ''kink'' the story has, it's not exactly everyone's cup of tea ... man ... *whines* this is what I call "hard decision making" :)

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[herminekurotowa.livejournal.com]

Damn, that's an easy decision!

Write it. Post it. I wanna read it.

[soncnica.livejournal.com]

hahahah, I so wish it was an easy decision, but it's not. I've already signed up for the ''Sam Dean OTP Minibang 2014'' AND now this?! That's a lot of stories to write :)
Gosh .... idk ... I mean I wanna do this, otherwise this story will never be finished, but idk ...

ahhaha, you say that now, but the 'kink' might make you scrunch up your nose and walk away :) LOL

S.

[somer.livejournal.com]

Mwahahaha, WHAT DO YOU THINK I'M GONNA SAY TO THAT??? DO IT!!!! Is that the kinky story you talked about way back, when you still had to decide which one to write for the regular BB? And you then decided it would probably be too kinky for it?

Do it. Do it. Do it. Do it :D

[soncnica.livejournal.com]

ROFL!!!!! ummmm, I'm thinking that you'll say DON'T DO IT!!! SAVE YOUR SANITY AND DON'T SIGN UP!!! DO NOT DO IT!! :) *cough* am I right? *blinks*

no, that story, I'll post out of the blue, not part of any challenge because it wouldn't work as Sam/Dean, it has to be J2 :) and weirdly, that story even with like 30 warnings, I feel okay posting, but THIS one ... idk ...

gosh ... and then I still have to write the story for Sam Dean OTP Minibang 2014 ... *sigh*

S.

[somer.livejournal.com]

Yeeeeeah, that was exactly what I wanted to say...NOT!!! LOL 30 warnings??? When will this posting out of the blue be happening?? Soon? Very soon? :P

Mmh, does that mean the not-yet-hardcore-BB-I-really-hope-you-do story will be even kinkier? Will there be 31 warnings? ;)

[soncnica.livejournal.com]

Hahhaha, damn, I was really hoping you'd say that :))))
As soon as I write the middle part aka sex! :) or rape?! gangbang? sex? no, its more like ... '''rape accepted by society'''!? ugh, idk, it's not even rape, it's ... idk what it is?! :) but yeah when that will be written then all I have to do is edit!

actually it will only have 3 warnings; the whole story will be only happening on a bed in a motel room and maybe in the bathroom (I'll see) so yeah, 3-4 warnings :) It'll probably be dom/sub thingy, and Dean'll be punished by Sam 'cause Dean was bad! :) lol :) I was reading a lot of slave and D/s fics and like in 90% of those the punishment was always spanking or hitting in some form and I was thinking::: well, yeah, but that's kinda boring, I wanna do something else!
so ... yeah .... I did something else! :) *shakes head* idk ...

[somer.livejournal.com]

Dean'll be punished by Sam 'cause Dean was bad *rubs hands in glee*

And of course you wanna do something else :P It wouldn't be you if it was the same like everything else!! AND IT ALREADY SOUNDS AWESOME. GO AND SIGN UP. That is what you wanted to hear, wasn't it? Mahahaha. Sign up sign up sign up :D

[soncnica.livejournal.com]

:) :) :) poor Dean *sigh* I bet he won't be bad ever again, after this punishment!

yeah, I mean spanking and being hit by various things is fun to read for awhile, but then it just gets boring and the same and yeah, I just wanted to do something else ... something that's actual punishment and that Dean would never want to be punished like that ever again!

LOL, actually I wanted to hear some NO DON'T DO IT, YOU DON'T HAVE TIME, YOU HAVE OTHER THINGS TO WRITE ABOUT, OTHER CHALLENGES, AND HOUSEWORK AND stuff! OH WELL ... I guess this is what I get if I have way too awesome people around me! :) *hugs*
I'll go over my notes for the story tomorrow and see how it all looks and then see if I'll sign up or not, I have until Sept. 1st, I think! :)

*takes a deep breath* yikes!

S.

[amberdreams.livejournal.com]

You know this fandom has kinks coming out of its ears (and that is probably a kink in its own right!) so I'd say go for it, someone is bound to art for it.

[soncnica.livejournal.com]

hahahahhaha, you've got THAT right, I mean I think this fandom invented a/b/o knotting fics!:) ahhahahaha ....
When I'll sign up, I'll say NOT EXPLICIT art, because yeah ... just no! the story lives in my head and I see the images HD, full color and I don't want to see them on ''paper'' also! :) :) so, maybe that'll be easier!
and I need to find a beta too ... my usual beta doesn't do wincest. darn; so many problems!

S.

[peepingdru.livejournal.com]

You should u should u should!!!!!!!!....PLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEESE....x0x0x00x0x

[soncnica.livejournal.com]

Just signed up, yay ... I was thinking about this a lot last night and ROFL, then I just wrote it! ahhaha, I'll write it all down on my computer later today, see the word count, edit it a bit more and it should be all done :) *shakes head* what am I even doing!? :)
thank you for cheering me on! :)

S.

[vyperdd.livejournal.com]

I am also doing both Sam/Dean OTP and the hardcore bang, so I say go for it. Was working already on both fics so just hard to choose which one was more kinky and do that one for the hardcore.

Both of your story idea sound fantastic. I find most spanking fics to be very much same old, same old stuff, so something different as punishment sounds great. And the rape one is already hitting a lot of my kinks.

I'd love to beta either one for you. Not only does ultra-kinky wincest not offend me, it's pretty much my OTP and genre.

[soncnica.livejournal.com]

Hey! :)
YOU'RE DOING BOTH TOO!??!!??! *bows before you* THIS IS SO AWESOME TO HEAR, that I'll have a partner in suffering :) LOL :)
hahahah, isn't it super hard to have so many stories and having to decide which one to use for which challenge!? I find that really hard to do! :)

yeah I was just reading a lot of stories and the ''punishment'' in them was always spanking or being hit with something and after awhile it just got really boring and I just skipped those parts, so I wanted to write something else ... *shrugs* there are so many ways to ''punish'' someone, and spanking is just kinda boring, at least for me!
and I don't even know if it is rape, because the society is done so that it's not rape, but something that just is, so its more like a gangbang, but rape too and idk ... putting up warnings/tags and stuff is so hard sometimes *sigh*

OH would you really beta this for me!?!??!! WOULD YOU?!!?!? that would be soooo amazing! I only need someone to go over spelling/grammar and commas (as my beta for my Big Bang told me, I have an unhealthy comma obsession, ROFL). :) Anywho, if you would be sooo kind and to beta this for me, I'd very very much appreciate it!
I've started working on the story already, have it basically all done already, I just have to type it down on my computer, edit and the likes, which should take me maybe 2-3 weeks! ('m slow and a perfectionist, I can't help it, LOL) and then I can PM you and we can talk then! And if you need a sounding board OR any help with any of your stories, just let me know! :) And if you wanna know anything more about the story, just PM me :)

and what will your story be about, if may I ask!? :) :)

hugs
S.

[vyperdd.livejournal.com]

Yay!!!! You signed up!!! Good on ya!!

You have me very intrigued by the rape-but-not-really-rape fic. Can't wait to read that one.

Yes, I would really love to beta your fics. PM me whenever you are ready.

My two fics are over half-way finished. SamDean OTP is at about 11,000 words and takes place in mid-season 8 after Sam gives up being with Amelia to stay with Dean. Dean basically takes control of Sam's life, including sex, so has a lot of D/s and BDSM elements.

Hardcore is just under 5000 at this stage and has the premise of Dean starting a rather one-sided relationship with Sam that Christmas we saw in the SPN Xmas flashback (where Sam reads John's journal), just kissing and fondling to begin with then working up to hand jobs, blowjobs and finally full anal sex when Sam is about 13/14. It's high on dub-con as Sam really doesn't want to sleep with his brother (he's straight) but there's not much he can do about it. The twist is that when Sam discovers girls (Amy Pond, him asking Dean how to talk to girls) Dean doesn't get jealous, he gets really turned on at the thought of other people fucking his baby brother as long as he gets to watch or gets to fuck Sam first in front of the other person. So it's basically non-jealous voyeur! Dean controlling Sam's sex life from a very young age. There might be some het (Sam/Jess) and there will be a bondage and whipping scene with 4 other guys that Dean has set up without Sam's knowledge that may lead to a gangbang (not sure yet). Oh and dub-con sex while John is in the same room.

[soncnica.livejournal.com]

I DID IT!!! I DID IT!!! *faints*

hmm, let's just say its considered rape in this world, but something that has to happen in the world the story is set in :) ('m crap at warnings and tags and stuff, because sometimes some things just can't be all nicely put in a box :))

I will definitely PM you when the story will be all nice and ready, so that all you'll have to do will be fix my awful grammar :)

oh damn, wow, well just reading what your stories will be about, I'm so so so so very much looking forward to them being posted for me and everyone to read!! awesome, awesome, awesome! *rubs hands in glee*

hugs.
S.

[vyperdd.livejournal.com]

Will be eagerly awaiting your PM.

I'm really enjoying writing these two fics and just letting myself be as kinky as possible.

[soncnica.livejournal.com]

:) :)

As you should ... don't let anything stop you! :)

take care and have a wonderful day :)
S.

[completelyurban.livejournal.com]

“Don't fear failure. — Not failure, but low aim, is the crime. In great attempts it is glorious even to fail.”
― Bruce Lee

Good for you for signing up. Don't ever be afraid of what people think. You're you and you're awesome. :)

[soncnica.livejournal.com]

hey :)
wise words and I'll take them to heart!!!!

I did sign up and am already like 3/4 done with the story so .. *takes a deep breath* let's do this then, huh?! :))) *hugs you*
You're awesome too, and 'm still waiting for that story of yours ... LOL, don't think I forgot!!! :P

S.

[completelyurban.livejournal.com]

Ha, my story is going pretty slow at the moment. It seems between my son and the baby and all the other things I need to do, the story is last on the list most nights. I would really love to get it done though, and not just for me, but for you too!

*hugs*

[soncnica.livejournal.com]

hahahah, well taking care of kids is MORE important than writing and such, so just take care of the little ones!!! :) and heeeeeeey, no, LOL, if you'll write the story you have to do it for yourself and for no one else :)
*hugs*
S.