Reviving Sammy

[soncnica]

Title: Reviving Sammy
Author: soncnica
Rating: PG-13
Genre/pairing: GEN
Characters: Sam, Dean
Word count: cca. 800
Summary: All this… is seriously messing with Dean's perception of what Death is.
Warnings: Spoilers for S6E11&12
Disclaimer: I seriously only own the grammar/spelling mistakes. Everything else is not mine! NOT MINE! ALL IS FICTION!

Enjoy...

He's watching Death lean over his brother. Just like that, like it has the right to invade his brother's space like that.

Sam doesn't care… Dean knows that.

He can't stop watching though, can't tear his eyes away. It's like a car crash; you know you shouldn't watch other people's misery, but you just can't stop.

-:-

Death... man, Death doesn't give life, what the hell? It takes it. It's in its freakin' job description for pete's sake. Dean had had a taste of it himself plenty of times, apparently, well according to Ash… umm, so yeah he knows.

Death… it's what it is. It's... death.

Death.

Death.

Death.

But watching Death put that soul back into his little brother; watching that bright light being swallowed up by his little brother's chest... is a sight to behold. Is something Dean never thought he'd see happen.

Death… doesn't give life.

It takes it, for crying out loud.

-:-

"Whoa, whoa, Sam. Sam! Hey! Come here. Let me look at you."

His hand slipping in Sam's hot blood.

"Hey, look at me. It's not even that bad. It's not even that bad, all right? Sammy? Sam! Hey, listen to me. We're gonna patch you up, okay? You're gonna be good as new. I'm gonna take care of you. I'm gonna take you care of you. I've got you. That's my job, right? Watch out for my pain-in-the-ass little brother? Sam? Sam! Sammy!"

-:-

Death had been there. The man/thing/person/something that's putting freakin' life/soul/anotherperson/sameperson back into his little brother at the moment, had been there then... that night, that night when everything changed. It touched his brother and took everything away from him. Touched and took.

Touched and took.

Touched and took.

Took his little brother's life, took Dean's life, took everything and more… changed everything.

-:-

No matter how much Sam's screaming to stop, stopstopstopstop! Dean can't.

He wants his little brother back.

He needs his little brother back.

No matter the cost. No matter what the consequences might be. No matter nomatternomatter… he just wants Sammy back. He wants his brother back.

Because this 'person/thing/something' begging him to nononostopstopstop, is not his brother. Is not Sam. Not Sammy. Could never be Sam. Never was Sam.

Was a person though. Was someone. Was a human being and Dean's killing him.

Death is killing him.

Death is doing its job then. Its killing this nothisbrother, its killing a human being.

God, he starts to pray… but doesn't know what else to say other than… fuck you.

This is all screwing with his head, making an even bigger mess inside of his grapefruit than it already was.

But… he'll get his brother back.

He'll kill this Sam to get his Sam back. The Sam he raised. The annoying, pain-in-the-ass little brother, who wanted to play soccer when he'd been a kid, who eats green stuff and fruit, who drowns down one beer and he's doing karaoke… geeky, irritating… Sam who feels, needs, wants, loves, cries, hugs… fuckin' sleeps and eats.

He'll get Sammy back.

-:-

He wants to step forward, yell: "Stop, you're killing him!" because seeing all that happening is seriously messing up his perception of how shit is supposed to go down, but no… that's… that's Death giving life back to his brother.

Giving Sam Sam; giving his baby brother back his soul, giving his baby brother back to him.

Killing Sam.

Reviving Sam.

Old Sam, new Sam, old Sam, new Sam, oldSamnewSam, thisSamthatSamthisSamthatSam, Sam, Sam, Sam, SamSamSam...

Then it's over like a supernova exploding.

"Sammy?"

The End.

Comments

[ficwriter1966.livejournal.com]

That is absolutely gorgeous! It's tough to hit the right notes in stream of consciousness sometimes, but I think you've got it just right.

LOVE this. Thanks for sharing it!

[soncnica.livejournal.com]

hey! :)

thank you so much! I'm sooo happy you liked this :))

*beams* thank you! :)))) yeah stream of consciousness is hard to capture, because it's fluid... once you stop writing, you lost it... so you have to finish the story in one sitting or else everything can be lost :)

thank you!!!

S.

[somer.livejournal.com]

That last 'Sammy'...

I find it quit interesting how you can build up this emotions in such a short fic. It's like you work towards something, I don't now how I can describe it with my bumpy english...everything gets faster, louder, there are more and more thoughts, like a whirlwind and then suddenly everything stops, absolute silence...only 'Sammy?'. He, that sounds so sappy, doesn't it?

And I couldn't let it go. I just rewatched the end of 6.11 and I could definitively imagine Dean saying it in the silence, straight after the screen goes black. You know, the last thing we hear in the silence before the episode ends, that would have been a cliffhanger...aaaaah I shut up now.

I only wanted to say that I loved it :)

[soncnica.livejournal.com]

hey babe! :)

I took a bit of a vacation from The Hunt and finished writing this... ha..:)
so happy you liked this!! *beams*

yeah you know... when I watched ep 11 and when it ended I KNEW I had to write something where the very last word in the story will be SAMMY.. because I missed it.. I mean if Dean would say Sammy into the dark, when the ep ended, just like you said.. omg I think I'd start crying.... the writers kinda blew that one, I wish they'd make Dean say that.. ;( but oh well... so yeah I wrote this like this and yeah.. *SQUEE* so happy you liked it!

hey your english is awesome and I totally get what you're trying to say... :))) but I don't know the answer on how I can do that... let's call it.. beer and too much sun!? LOL :))))

*huggles you* thank you!

now I'm off to write '''the other story''' LOL

S.

[cookiemom6067.livejournal.com]

Yikes - that was really awesome inner Dean.

[soncnica.livejournal.com]

hey! :))))

*beams* thank you! :))) so happy you liked this! :))))
man Dean is soo hard to write...makes my head hurts... ugh... but I adore the little smurfy.. so:))) thank you!

hugs
S.

[road-rhythm.livejournal.com]

Absolutely loved the complexity you added to Dean's outlook on RoboSam. ♥

[soncnica.livejournal.com]

hey :))

thank you so much for reading!

and yeah... man just watching that scene.... idk... made me think about robo!Sam being a person, and then Dean wanting his brother and Death killing yet giving life... it's really complicated if you sit down and really think about it! :))))

and thank you so much for liking this! :)))

S.