Update on my BigBang

Soooo ... if anyone would like to know (probably no one) BUT ...
I have signed up for the spn_j2_bigbang!
I have gotten myself one of them cute icons and idk who to credit, but oh well ....
I have a TITLE and a SUMMARY for the story!
I have decided it will be J2, not SPN!
I still haven't decided if it will be full on slash OR something very close to it. But not really it.
I already have a beta.
I already have a prologue that is 6.000 words long (yay only 14.000 more words to write!!!)
I have divided the story into a prologue, and 4 chapters, no epilogue, because the last sentence in CH4 will be enough!
I have written a scene already, that made me cry into my pillow and choke on my spit!
I am debating with myself if I should include the mentioned scene in the fic or not, as it broke me!
The story is not supposed to be sad, it's supposed to be happy, laughted-filled, sunny and bright and funny and smelling of hay and forests.
The story is hurt,abused!Jensen with A LOT and I mean A LOT of comforting!Jared (it's my story, I can do what I want! :P)
There's a three sentences ('m not kidding) long het scene in the story that made me bang my head against my desk, because ... well ... het?! Really!? Ugh

That's it ... I am VERY confident that I can do this! I am! Just ... **takes a deep breath** 14.000 or so more words to go!