Smokin' 's Bad For Ya... Or Not

[soncnica]

Title: Smokin' 's Bad For Ya... Or Not
Author: soncnica
Rating: I'll go with 'R'
Genre/pairing: Jared/Jensen
Characters: Jared, Jensen
Word count: cca. 1.300
Summary: It was never like this, but God help him, he likes it.
Warnings: Okay, so... cigarettes, smoking and burns. And Jared is kinda... bossy.
Disclaimer: I seriously only own the grammar/spelling mistakes. Everything else is not mine! NOT MINE! ALL IS FICTION!
A/N: Erm, so I saw a prompt on blindfold_spn and just had to write it. And the round is closed now, so... I don't think I can post this there anymore. Heh...

A/N: The prompt went something like this: Cigarette burns. Don't care what pairing. Don't care what level of consensuality. But casual cruelty is a bonus. The burned partner submitting for it whether they want it or not would be blowjobs with sprinkles on top.
And then my mind went and wrote this; it's NOT entirely like the prompt wanted it to be, but the prompt was the inspiration for this :) 

Enjoy...

It was not really clear who came up with the idea of doing this – maybe it was Jared entirely, or maybe it was Jensen eyeing that cigarette between Jared's lips like he wanted to devour it - because it was never like this.

It was never like this...

No one smoked from the two of them; no one even looked at the cigarette boxes in the store… because it was never like this.

No one could tell, if asked, when this really started... no one could say when it'll end. Because it was never like this before and after… well, only time will tell, but right now… right this second, with Jensen's arm stretched across the table, his fingers entwined with Jared's… it was like that.

-:-

"Roll up your sleeve."

"Why?"

Jared pulled in another breath of smoke, holding it in and releasing it slowly, his eyes never leaving Jensen's across the table.

"'cause I said so."

He tapped the cigarette on the edge of the ashtray, watching Jensen watch the ash fall down.

"Now."

He tapped the cigarette once more and looked down at it while listening to the sound of Jensen rolling up his sleeve.

The table was cold when he slid his bare left arm towards Jared; the table wooden and hard, cold even in the summer night, cut by knives and dented by forks that missed their goal - a steak or pasta or salami or omelets or eggs.

He pulled his fingers into a fist and released it a second later when he saw Jared's eyes widen just fractionally, but it was enough to make him realize that his fingers… should not be in a fist.

"Palm up."

"What?"

"Palm up on the table."

He tapped the cigarette on the edge of the ashtray again, his eyes never leaving Jensen's… his eyes never leaving that drop of sweat that was rolling down Jensen's temple. He wanted to lean forward and lick it off, but instead he just spread his legs open as wide as his jeans allowed and leaned back to rest his back on the back of the chair.

He didn't know what the fuck was going on, but his arm just… turned around and the back of his hand fell on the hard surface. The table had been getting warmer and warmer the more time he held his arm on it… hell, his whole body was getting warm and he was starting to sweat, he could feel it. That annoying, tickling drop of sweat that was rolling down his temple… he wanted to wipe it off, but he knew he just knew that if he does that… Jared will be pissed.

"Good…" he whispered when he saw the blue and green veins in Jensen's wrist, his eyes travelling further up Jensen's arm, he could see it being strong, muscular, not as vein-y as his own but still… he looked at all that smooth, soft skin… all the way up to the bicep, all the way up to the shoulder that was hidden underneath Jensen's shirt. Maybe he'll get to see the shoulder later. Much later. Kiss it all around… but later.

He tapped the cigarette once more… before his fingers grabbed Jensen's wrist, and pushed the cigarette stub directly in the middle of all that smooth, soft skin of the underside of Jensen's forearm.

"What the fuck, man?"

Jensen got up from the chair, wanting to run the hell away and kick Jared's ass for doing that, but he was held by Jared… he didn't know what hurt more… the cigarette burn or Jared's fingers wrapped so tightly around his wrist nearly pulling his shoulder out of its socket.

"Sit your ass down."

"You shitting me, right?"

"Do I look like 'm shitting you?"

Jared looked really, really far from shitting anyone… his eyes were open wide and intense, almost predatory, shining in the light of the fading sun, his lips a thin line – not angry per se – and his arm stretched across the table, veins sticking out – so strong – his fingers tight around Jensen's wrist, grinding bones together… yeah Jared looked really, really far from shitting anyone.

Jensen sat back down slowly his arm still held by Jared to the table. He didn't know what to say… because it was never like this. Jared never… hurt him.

"Did it hurt?" Jared whispered pouring as much concern in those three words as he could.

Jensen looked down at the burn. It was a circle, not quite a right circle; he must've shifted the cigarette when he moved… it was looking kinda red in the middle… kinda really, really angry red. It hurt… not a lot, it was more like… stinging… it must've been because Jared wasn't holding it there for long. And then he looked a bit further down his arm, at Jared's strong, long fingers circling his wrist… it felt nice, felt warm, felt secure, felt like he can't escape it and…it was kinda… really… good? It felt good… felt good to be held like that. Felt safe.

He looked up at Jared: "Naw, doesn't hurt all that much."

"Yeah?"

"Yeah."

He smiled back when he saw Jared's lips pull into a smile with those white teeth showing and deep dimples forming in his cheeks.

He leaned his head to his right for a split second: "Yeah."

"Want more?"

The table was hot underneath the bare skin of his forearm when he said: "Yeah."

"Yeah or yes?"

"Yes."

He had to wait for Jared to light up another cigarette, had to wait for it to burn down, had to wait with Jared's hand around his wrist being so warm he started to sweat; they both started to sweat.

He wanted to ask what the fuck where they doing, but he didn't wanna… he didn't wanna know what the fuck they were doing he just knew that he wanted this.

This time the cigarette went down on his skin just a little bit away from the side of Jared's palm that was still around his wrist… as if he'd try to move it… he'd never move it. Not anymore.
He flinched and hissed a little; the heat pushing its way deeper and deeper into his arm, below his skin.
He pulled up his fingers, trying to touch Jared's hand like that, but all he could do was brush the side of it with his fingers and make Jared look at him. The look he got, nearly made him come in his pants right there and then.

"You 'kay?"

"Fuck me…" he breathed out, because it was starting to really, really hurt this time; like someone dropped hot coal on his skin and forgot it there and just as he was about to start screaming 'STOP!' Jared pulled away the stub, leaving a perfect circle behind. A perfect, red circle.

"Maybe later. Maybe later," he moved the cigarette up and down Jensen's arm, just a fraction of an inch above the skin, just close enough for Jensen to feel the heat and far enough not to touch the skin, "I'll do this all over your body, huh? Your chest, your stomach, your thighs, your back. What do ya think?"

"I think you're an asshole."

Jared smirked: "I think you're gonna love it."

Jensen hissed when cold air touched the burn, but before he could say STOP DOING THIS! Jared moved his hand holding Jensen's wrist so that Jensen could wrap his fingers around Jared's wrist.
Jensen could feel Jared's heartbeat with his palm, how wild it was, how fast it was... he wrapped his fingers around Jared's wrist tighter, wanting that out of control heartbeat closer, because he was sure that Jared was feeling the same through his palm.  

"Hurts?"
The whispered word caught Jensen by surprise; he was focusing on Jared's heartbeat and completely forgot that he should be focusing on something else.

"Hell yeah…"

Jared laughed and pushed the cigarette down on that perfectly smooth and soft skin again, loving the sound Jensen made.

"You're mine now." Jared whispered and pushed the stub harder onto Jensen's skin.

-:-

Jensen didn't know when it became like this. Because it had never been like this, but God help him, he likes it.

The End. 

Comments

[goldie3.livejournal.com]

Jesus, that was intense. Loved it.

[soncnica.livejournal.com]

hey!!!
THANK YOU SO MUCH! *beams*
I never... wrote anything like this... erm slashy, I mean... so... phew...
THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH for reading and leaving a comment! :)))

S.

[eternal-moonie.livejournal.com]

Absolutely AWESOME story!

[soncnica.livejournal.com]

HEY!
THANK YOU!!!! SO MUCH!!! :)))

*jumps up and down* :)))

thank you!!!!!

S.

[marlowe78.livejournal.com]

Whoa... Scary. It's really, really scary, because as ... I'm not sure hot is the right word here, maybe intense? it is, the fact remains that such kind of love is a bit scary.

But damn, it's awesome!

[soncnica.livejournal.com]

LOL :))) scary!? hmmm, yeah... it is bordering on d/s relationship.. kinda.. maybe... or not.. idk... but yeah it is scary - this kinda love... I'd be freaked to be honest... or not... ya know!? it's hard to tell .. it just messes with your head.. this kinda love! :)

tnx for reading!! :)))

hugs
S.

[marlowe78.livejournal.com]

I really don't know much about d/s, but what I meant with scary was: What happens when they one day DON'T agree? When it's really hurting? Or what if Jensen in this case doesn't want it anymore?

Sure, maybe in d/s there are that kind of problems as well, but I think it's more ritualized.

I mean, I THINK there are rules and all, and they have safewords and stuff. In this fic? Not.

See what I mean with scary?

We have a band here, punk. They wrote a song that's called "Alles aus Liebe" - All because of Love". The refrain goes:

"And all that, because I love you, and I don't know how to prove it. Come, I'll show you how huge my love is for you, I'm going to kill us both."

(Wow, it actually doesn't sound so bad in English)

It's a bit like that.

[soncnica.livejournal.com]

(man I love your icon!)

I have no clue about d/s but MAYBE some people will see signs of it starting in this fic... I have no idea.. I just wrote this with NO other things in mind! :)

hmm, I think that IN this fic, that if Jensen would say STOP, Jared would stop! because they didn't set any rules or are not in that kinda relationship and all, I mean this just... happened.. ya know!? so yeah Jared would stop and Jared did ASK Jensen if he does want this... and Jensen said YES... and if Jensen would say NO, then Jared would stop! :) well he would in my mind and in my writing! LOL

and that is one scary song... ya know!? that is scary!!!! THAT is scary...

[dr-ducktator.livejournal.com]

Wow. Bad ass. I really enjoyed this one. Who knew I had a cigarette kink?

[soncnica.livejournal.com]

HEY :))

I love me some erm evil!Jared! LOL... hahaha... 's my kink :))

you and me both... you and me both... *shakes head* cigarette kink, ya know!? what the hell!? *shakes head*

'm so happy you liked this!!! thank you so much for reading!!! :))))

S.

[sam-dean-lover.livejournal.com]

wow, never read anything like that!

[soncnica.livejournal.com]

hey! :)))

LOL, I don't know how to take your comment, but I'll take it as a... erm.. that the story was okay!? :) LOL... idk :)))

I NEVER WROTE ANYTHING like that... well until now! LOL :))) oh man... oh man... *shakes head*

thank you so much for reading! :) and commenting! :)) thank you!

S.

HOT!

[nanoks.livejournal.com]

Is it wrong that I found this hot! Wow! So hot! Love the boys and this was great! *hugs*

Re: HOT!

[soncnica.livejournal.com]

hmmm, no it's not wrong, because I find it hot too... so... please.. for the sake of my sanity... this is NOT wrong and IT IS hot! please go with me on this one!!! :))))

thank you again so much for reading all these stories of mine! *smishes you*

S.

[si-star-x.livejournal.com]

There's this song, right? It goes like this...

I'm jealous of your cigarette
And all the things you do with it
I'm jealous of your cigarette
And how you wanna suck on it
And not me

LOL. Yeah. I just totally got reminded of that song. Cool fic. Strangely dark and intense, but cool.

[soncnica.livejournal.com]

hey!!!

:O never heard of that song, but yeah.. it does fit!!! ahahha, so cool! :)))

mmm I love dark... LOOOVE dark!! :)))

thank you!!!! :)))

*hugs*
S.

[somer.livejournal.com]

Huh, damn...that was hot and intense...I don´t know how to describe it. Or it was simply your writing style again that created this special atmosphere. I mean, Jared had to know exactly how far he can go without chasing Jensen away and it seems that in the end it was what Jensen wanted.

Ah, hell, ignore all of the above. I mean, predatory!Jared, marking?? Yep, I loved it! :)

[soncnica.livejournal.com]

hey babe! :)))

LOL, well you know me by now... dark and intense is the game I love to play :)))) seriously... dark!fic!? *faints*

it is soooo hard to really lock this story in a box and label it.. don't you think? I mean... there are all these options about what this story is or what it means or how the boy's relationship is and all that.. it's soo hard to say anything.. there are too many options :)

but YES, Jared knew exactly how far to push Jensen and he knew exactly where the limits are with Jensen. :) and I love him for that :))) hehehe

:) thank you so much! now I have to go write predatory!Jared and marking for the hunt! :)))

whooooot!

thank you!!!

*hugs*

S.

[sikeminatural.livejournal.com]

I swear I could smell cigarettes as I read this? LOL. And i'm in a library...anywho.

Very intense and deep but I like it. :)

[soncnica.livejournal.com]

hahaha, I'd check if there was someone smoking in the library :)))) you never know *shrugs* :)))

thank you baby! :)))

S.

[mihka-mc.livejournal.com]

oh what a nice story for a fire/kink.

[soncnica.livejournal.com]

mhm, I don't know, babe... I mean I don't even smoke.. no one in my family does, but the prompt just... WAH grabbed me and took me! weird

thank you for reading!

S.

[mihka-mc.livejournal.com]

Yes it was. I consider cigarette burns to be in the fire/kink just like cigars, matches, open flames, etc.

[soncnica.livejournal.com]

:O really!? darnit, now I'm picturing Jared moving up and doing some stuff with cigars on Jensen's skin... heh...

S.

[mihka-mc.livejournal.com]

lol, I don`t think I can find it again but I saw a video once of a scene and the guy was rolling those thing that you light for juggling?

So he was rolling them on that girl and slightly hitting her everywhere with them. It was awesome to watch but not something I would do thoug.

If I can find it again, I'll send you the link.

[soncnica.livejournal.com]

owie... *hisses* didn't that hurt? I mean cigarette burns don't hurt so much... I had a school friend in high school that when we went out to get drunk, when he got drunk enough he put out his cigarette on his arm and then the next day when we met in school, I was sitting behind him and like when he'd turn around he'd put his arm on my desk and I could see all the cigarette burns and I always pointed to a specific one and said: you got this one after you drank that Jager... or I'd point to another one and say: you got this one when you took that shot of vodka :)
so yeah.... I mean crazy!

but yeah.. vid.. vids are always awesome! :)

S.